W.O.M.E.N

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Girl... Female... Feminine... Woman... Lady...
whatever they may been called...

the Creature that made by arts, with all the complication which comes close to perfection
All belong to them...
The heart that fulfilled with love to share, to care, to dare...
The mind that somehow filled with emotions to dilute what comes out from the heart...
The beautiful eyes that carry tears, but doesn't mean they weak, its the way they expressing their smooth feeling of sadness even sometimes came with the smile from---
The lips that have sweet tastes and somehow it has beautiful melodies out of it, the one even babies will fall asleep nicely hear it within...
The nice curve of the waist and hips to prop up the new creature that been carried safely in The Womb for three-trimester...
The both hands that unbelievably strong and feel so warm that giving amazing touch to protect to care and to love, to caring the new-born close to her chest and let them grow, they even could grab the lost soul to get to find its HOME... the arms that can cure the pain...
The sexy legs that carry above all, to walk on the park and teach their babies how to walk,
some of them even have to walk so far to stay alive and fight for their life...

With all the sweetness they have to cheer up the days,,,
With the sensitivity to be more care and to be aware,, but somehow they are able to hold the tears,, because how can they cheering up while tears are flowing out of those beautiful eyes,,,
Too sensitive sometimes, even easily breakage,,
but with the carefulness they manage to put back the broken pieces, even won't look like how it used to be,,,and they are too gentle to carry grudge,,,
With all their strength they could stood up in the suffers and facing the threats that life has been given to them...They bet their life for the new life, they sacrificing, their love is sincere, they are adorable, they are beautiful, they are shed of perfection, all complete...

But there's only ONE THING missing from them...
sometimes..
somehow..

"They just forgot how PRECIOUS they are"

10 Things about ME :)

1. What is your favourite flavor Ice Cream?
:: Hmmm...quite a tough one, I LOVE ICE CREAM sooo much, from the low fat to the yummiest doubble choco ones...but one of my Most Favorite is 'Cherry Garcia' from Ben & Jerry's

2. What is on your iPod?
:: dont use iPod,,but i compiled my music all in my Handy---Carl Cox, Uffie, Bloc Party, Bjork, John Legend, Ne-yo, R. Kelly, Corinne B. Rae, Mars Volta, RadioHead, PutuMayo, and many more but all those are my fav.

3. What is the most impossible thing you will never be seen with/like?
:: hhmmm... fakebags and Crocs and blonde hair,,hihihihih

4. What is your most fav food?
:: to be very honest, I am a big time weight watcher, cause I used to be fat, so, I have to be careful when it comes to the food consumption, but I LOVE SUSHI and pasta(s).. and one thing, I love to cook too :P

5. My Current Obsession?
:: Alexander Wang Clutch and Black Satin Louboutin baby :p

6. My Favorite piece in my wardrobe?
:: My hands-on Vintage Chanel bag from my Mom :)

7. Recent Purchases?
:: Pair of White Wedge, Red Rubber Shoes, Black Heels, Winter Coat, & Body Warmer ;)

8. Matters I can't live without? (coz I cant say things ;p)
:: My Bamy,, My Mom,, My Dad (my Portable ATM Machine) haha,, My Cellphone,, My wallet,, and Petroleum Jelly :)

9. My Style Icon & Inspirations?
:: Icon - The Olsen Twins,,, Victoria Beckham,,,
:: Inspirations - Vogue,,, Bazaar,,, (F)tv,,, My Uncle as the Designer here in Indonesia (Barli Asmara),,, Street Wears,,, Mix & Match editorials,,, Fashion Blogs

10. If I can own one thing where price doesn't matter, that would be...
:: My Private Jet Plane :) So, I can be a 'Jumper' ;p

My WishList

LOMOgraphic CAMERA
I want..I want...I want...I want....I want....
I juz wanna start to taking photos again,,,since i already left it loonngggg time ago,,,
need to check whether my skill still there or not,,,huahahahahaha


RayBan Wayfarer II dualtone
been wanted this for so long... :(


Bruno Frisoni Shoes frm fall-winter 08/09
OMG.. I'm so all over this heels, havnt got shoe fetish for quite ages



LG KF900 Prada
I actually just grab my handy of Nokia E71...but I saw this on sale by now,,
aaarrrggggghhhhhh...feels like am gonna betray my E71,,hihihihihi

My heart cries out loud

All I wanna do is just to give a sparkle of happiness to the people I LOVE THE MOST...
I am not a Santa Claus that brings Joy to the world and made kids happy to give em gift and make their wishes come real...
I'd try my best to put smile on their face as long as I could as long as I'm able to...
juz a sparkle like I said...

Is it wrong if I'm happy to see someone else is feeling happy even they are dancing around above my anguished heart,,, although they are the one who put it there,,, for me...
I dont care,,, I've learn not to carry grudge,,it so hard,,, its like fighting with yourself...
but its hard to live with it,,, I realize I have to build self-controlled not to let my 'evil side' of me drivin me to a direction or guide me to do sumthin I wouldn't had in mind for my self to be 'it' or 'there'...

People made mistakes,,that's what human do!!!
Even I sometimes afraid of making mistakes whereas ironically I STRIVE FOR PERFECTION...
sumhow to walk on e shaking bridge we have to pretend that it's a normal bridge so we will pass thru it easily...sumhow cares could got slipped too and become careless it seems...

To be very honest, I just wanna make everybody happy,,, fine at least...
I know its easy to find enemies and hard to find friends...
I juz wish by the time I step out this life everybody will cry,,
coz there were one time I've been nice to them all...

the Awaken Night and I...

...I dunno why I got awake suddenly,, I was actually having a very nice sleep,,
I haven't really bloged well for so long,, barely even write on my diary (OMG,,so old fashion)- I know, but I still do that sometimes and I still keep my diary :P and I just grabbed it again and have a looked at it,,
I stayed at one particular page, which I my self don't really remember when I wrote it, I guess it was around 2 or 3 years back, I wish I have a scanner in my room so that I can scan and post it here,,hihihihihi... so that I can show my old hand writting and my nonsensical stuff that I wrote,,hihihihi (I know,,,as usual...)
well,,let me just retype it here then ^^

In overall terrible facts then come out big wishes
where soul would never rest to roll over
and eyes would never stop tearing..
Heart already is supposed to keep on beating,
but it beats without rhymes that carry the unknown meanings
..underneath the undefeated thoughts on...
why I have to be borned?
why I have tears?
why we have to die?
and what is the point of loving each other between two-hearts if there are zillion of hearts still wondering what is the meaning of love?!?!

Years and yearsI live on this earth
with a simple wish which never ever gonna comes true
..severe hope bellow the pieces of broken heart
..I wish my Dad will come home,,
by then I know everything is gonna be alrite!!
Impacable causes & troubles are just started from the root where everything happens and strikes everything out...

Life is such a horror theme
and Love is a bitch..
it comes and goes, contain beautiful lies and dare to conquer everything
after u drawning inside it
...but just imagine life without bitching around!?!
you will striked out yourself,, you will stuck and die in a boredom..
or...
live with it and enjoy the pain
and it's all about the beautiful ones
so you will die with the big ass smile on your face :)

-sarah-

LOL
well,,dats wot made me stared at for few minutes,,hihih..
anyway,,gotta get back to bed now...

Quote of the day:

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not" - K.Cobain

Juz the Random feeling...

I feel somethin missing, without knowing what have I found
I feel I have found something, without knowing what have I been looking for
and I still feel like looking for, without knowing what has been missing

Sometimes I realizing the undefeated eagerness that cause me acting so fierce and uncontrolled its juz because too many things going through my mind,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, too many things I wanna grab in one shot!!!!!!!!!!!!! and its always about,, "WHY can't I have the thing like what she/he has???"

Now, wot I have to learn for my self is just to learn how to pleased my self in grateful, and start to think about the thing that I think is not the thing that I deserved is actually the thing that I think "NOT" and its the thing that I should think about it twice to hold on it so that I won't missed the thing just because I don't think its the good thing for me :D :D :D :D

The thing is (again...)
I should learn how to appreciate MY SELF, and feel grateful that I've been blessed this much and never think that somebody else's grass is greener than mine...
so,,,I should have wake up in the morning and start to say thankful that I still got chance to run another day of my life,,the brand new day,,,each and everytime I woke up in the morning,,when the sun is shinning through my window (although sometimes its annoying,,I should be glad by it :D) and the noisy rooster that wakes me up early in the morning,,,hahahahaha...thats how my 'morning orchestra' sounds like-and I LUV IT!!!
well,,light up your day Sarah!!!



QUOTE of the DAY:

'You know, we're all whores, but only some of us get paid.' (Virginia Fallon (Demi Moore) in Bobby, 2006)

nothing brings me down...

~Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery,
but today is a gift,
that's why we call it "present"~ Oogway-Kung Fu Panda

I know I am not strong enuff..but think about how hard the rocks are...even the continuous water drops could make a hole on it--and I am not made by rocks...only flesh and bloods

let me dive in and blend with the deep sea...the corals does survive in it....the fishes too,,lol... maybe by then I will find out the way on 'how to be strong'
and perhaps that is wot people called

"Learning by Doing"

hhhhhhh.........

LIVE the LIFE you LOVE and LOVE the LIFE you LIVE

My day is craaaazzzzyyyyy....

OMG.. If only my brain is core 2 duo... quatro core will be much helping,,,but,,, nevermind.. maybe I should upgrade my RAM to 4 GB instead of 1 or 2
Phheewww.... in your dream sarah, u havnt touch back to the future yet,
HOHOHOHO...
So...what should I do then, I am so borrreeeddddd...
my parents took of to Batam this Morning, I got to drop 'em early morning, duuuuddddeeeeee... and now am at the office keep yawning my self...
while am busy sending application and getting in touch with Rohde & Schwarz's people for the preparation of our next tenders and all.. yepp,, 'microwave radio link' u have any idea bt it?
I my self, though it was sum kind of a microwave with radio build-in, hihihihihi....

anyway,,
I passed by sum blogs of my pals and I saw sum photos of them that they took with LOMO Camera,,, dude!!! its so cool... 1st I was like, 'hmm...nice pics' but then i was like thinking my self as I saw the photo is like digital thingy, which I am not so into it, ever since I'd prefer the analog camera with old style way of processing, hihihhi...since I left off that 'Part' of my hobby, I've been waaaaaaaaayyyy left by the development of it,,,hihihihi (wotever..)
but then I saw that cute Lomo Camera,and its using negative films for photos, I just go like,,,woooottttt??? DUDE!!! am gonna grab any of those soon!! hihihihi...(once I get paid, of course,,hihihihi) so, soon, which means, next month..hohohoho...
I dunno I am all the sudden get flicked by photography mood again, I cant believe I threw my talent away(WOOOTTT!!!!) but seriously, I got my level3 for that but whyyyyyyyyyyyyy???? why I just cant believe my self I left it off... well,, this is wot my Mom's want, so, I gotta do it with gleefully (*wink)

anyway man,, gotta get back to work,,,its crazy... 3 hours left,, YAAYYY!!!! so I can go home and sleep, even the air-con in my room is not working because there's sumkind of stupid electricity problem (only upstairs,,hihihi,,,wierd rite!?) I DONT CARE... I NEED MY SLEEP!!!
Oh ya,, I can sleep in my mom's room,,since they're not around,,,hehehehe...

anyway..
HAVE A NICE TUESDAY EVERYONE..

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Everything you taught me and everything you showed me
It never seemed that I would listen to anything
But you’ve got my attention more than you know
I take it in, I dealt with it,

but I waited too late to use it...

I know I did it
Maybe I went overboard to prove a point
But sometimes my pride gets in the way
Maybe I need some time away to get my head together..

I know this was my last chance... I know it supposed to be no ''LAST ONE'' - "happened"
I may never get to hold your hands again
I can't say that I’m a better woman
I’m sorry...

I’m so sorry that I tore your heart apart last night
And I’m sorry if I scarred you again today
I didn’t mean to take your dreams and make them
seem so TRITE

I sincerely...
Completely...
Apologize for doin’ wot I did

my diamond in the sands

LOVE is not only a word...even a word does have a meaning different people,,different articulation LOVE is not a thing...u cant see it,,u cant touch it but it does exist!!! LOVE is a feeling,, u can see it with the eyes of your heart u can grab it with the arms of your heart u do FEEL it!! it grows... I juz wonder how and why love could be vanished (as wot sum ppl said so)

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the compilation of 2 different person under one roof of love as we called 'Relationship'
IS NOT EASY...
we do need mutual understanding,, it is a two way street,, it is a bout take and give,, it is about fidelity,, and TRUST,, all together under one umbrella...
it is a package,,one single part missing--then...I'm sorry to say... It wont works

you can say its a team-work,, the couple need to fight for each other,, to corporate and give their attention and dont forget Maintenance... once it works u dont want it to end that fast do u?

doesnt matter abt diffences, different mind sets or even backgrounds and habits and behavior...
there's a beauty in a differences,, sumtimes people couldnt see that..
wot do think that there are (+) and (-) for batteries and magnets, why there are AC--DC for electric stuff,, and u see there's north and south which is the opposite way but they both still called the same as "POLE".. and you should see this,,,

(image taken without permission,,hehe)

well,, this is exactly how I depict or picturing the machine of a couple..hihihihi
the generator that keeps it working and moving as well as its supposed to be functioned.
it should be fits to each other,, otherwise it wont moving,, it wont works...

exactly like wot I've been encountered my self

You know my sun won’t shine if You stop loving me…

This is Miracle!!!

I don’t believe my self could fell in love this much…

And YOU are here,,with me…

Yes,, I fall in LOVE with you as much as I want the sun to kept shinning thru my days…

I know I won’t regret my love to you… I won’t regret I’ve had one Lifetime on this earth,, I’d thankful for the LOVE that I have,, because right before I exhale my last breathe, I found the most amazing endowment that God has been blessed me with – it is YOU…

People said “distance could kill the love that u have” – by not seeing each other every single minutes and not being able to touch and adore each presence…

It is not valid for me,,

I was afraid of facing the hundred miles gap in between our love…

Thought I was a coward, but you’re my strength to stand up and hold on tight to what I have… like what you’ve ever said to me ‘if this would make you mine…’

I am not a warrior, I don’t do fight… But I swear on my own life, you are way so incredible for me, thus you are far away, all I wanna do is to LOVE you…

This is to show you how much I do love you. Nothing ever made my LOVE stop!!! As long as my heart still beating and time is still ticking – my LOVE to you will get stronger and deeper…

Its not normal if it’s too much argument or fight in a relationship,, but it’s not normal as well if we don’t have any… there are two different person compiled in one, so there must be some clashes happened.

And after all those roller coaster-riding period,, It didn’t change any single thing of my heart and mind – I am still Loving you even more, I am still holding you right in my heart just like how I used to.

"No, I'm no easy Angel.. I am moody like the wind..
I am impatient, complicated.. I am FRAGILE deep within...
but You'Re NO FOOL,,, and I'm NO LITTLE GIRL---
Have we not found,, there is LOVE in the WORLD _ THIS IS LOVE" - K. Rowland

God, I got amazed of my self, seeing how grown up I became right now. It has been 14 months we are together, and I noticed the huge change on my life, on my self, and how my world is so wonderful and I believed it will stop spinning around if I don’t have YOU… thanks for letting me blow to grow…

It s funny how we could gather our imaginations and wishes upon our dreams, then I realized,, ever since I’m with you – “Everyday is a Lucky day”

This is about differences,, this is about working things up TOGETHER

This is LOVE that I'm talking about...

FULL STOP!!!

WACKY WACKY SELF-LUCID~~

Another case in LIFE...

"To grow old is a must..but, to be mature is an option"

I don't think there's any such a bad person in this world... it might be just because the good people won't accept their behavior. it could be that the good person is holding the bad predicate-which actually juz been created by themselves... well,,not all good things are good nor bad things are bad,,, selfless-good-deeds does??? how we actually supposed to digest the meaning of it?!

well..

"YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE YOURSELF TO BE.
don't be like those people who believe in "positive thinking" and tell themselves that they're loved and strong and capable. You don't need to do that, because you know it already. And when you doubt it - which happens, I think, quite often at this stage of evolution--do as I suggested. Instead of trying to prove that you're better than you think, just laugh. Laugh at your worries and insecurities. View your anxieties with humor. It will be difficult at first, but you'll gradually get used to it." - Paulo Coelho

I am so into wot he says...

the function of the right ear is to accept the 'input' from 'people',,,while the left ear's function is to let it all OUT!!!
sumhow selfish is good if its exactly on the right portion...
the main thing to be underlined,,
I still never HEED on WOT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME...

u know?
I'm a Kryptonite my self
hahaha

~it may all seems ambiguous, but, anyway...
HIT IT!!!

---when YOU'RE not around---

have you ever shed a tear unconsciously???

have you ever awake all the sudden in ur sleep in the mid of the nite???

and do you know how it feels if you miss someone so bad and cant even touch the person,, barely even hug or kiss ;(

counting the ticking clocks for every single secconds is not nice...
and I dont think I have that much tears left to cry...

all I can do now is just imagine the day has come...
the day that me and him could embrace ourselves and wont be apart for any such reason and counting the ticking clock together, shelter under the nice hut that we built together and draw a huge colorful rainbow above it...

now I put a big smile on my face just by imagine it... =)

I do

He went away...

I dragged down n cried,,
He took my heart along with him...
I dont mind...I knew he will take good care of it...

If only He knows...
He is the reason I woke up in the morning,,
He is the reason why I smile...
He breaths the air I breathe...
He is the Best Thing dat ever happen in my whole Life...
He's my kryptonite...

I'll be here...I'll be winning him over EVERYTHING...
Go on Bamy,,,go catchin up Our Dreams,,,ouR Future it supposed...

I LOVE YOU...FOR SURE....
and there's NO END TO IT....

I Pee in a Bottle...

People,, do you aware about the circle of life?????

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Time is ticking,,,we dont even know when its gonna stop!!

imagine if ur life juz the same as the principle of the wheels',,when sumtimes you can be "UP" and sumtimes you can be "DOWN"....

believe me,,,if people juz realize that simple thing,,,

the world will be juz safe and sound - I think....

and why most people just having the same mindset, to see that somebody else's grass is greener, or why she looks more gorgeous than me, and how come I cant have the same fancy car as his???? --- maybe this the the main causes why some evil really dare to stab someone form the back,,,

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I’m yarning… If you only knew how tired I am to stand up on one foot for all this time and running at the same time with no arrow. Rapidly I tried to run away with no exemption.

from the world to my personal life wouldnt be much different,,,am a teeny tiny part of this huge ball that consists everything which going to be fucked up by the ones who stand on it!!!!

I guess world is just too big for me,, or I’m just too small…

I never wanna be a narrow minded person, but if I couldn’t have a broad minded in such a game coz everything will drive me NUTS coz I don’t have that much space to load. (I don’t know where it goes….but This is exactly wot I wanna say)

You know wot? I am so…overloaded…

I am just trying to find a way how to deals with people and start to do something on my own behalf, to do wot I want to do, not wot people want me to do…

But, I know its hard tho’… ever since I always trying to rely on images rather than the contain itself.

Making self perfections by holding on prides – NOT GOOD...

King Regards,

Sarah Aspih