My heart cries out loud

All I wanna do is just to give a sparkle of happiness to the people I LOVE THE MOST...
I am not a Santa Claus that brings Joy to the world and made kids happy to give em gift and make their wishes come real...
I'd try my best to put smile on their face as long as I could as long as I'm able to...
juz a sparkle like I said...

Is it wrong if I'm happy to see someone else is feeling happy even they are dancing around above my anguished heart,,, although they are the one who put it there,,, for me...
I dont care,,, I've learn not to carry grudge,,it so hard,,, its like fighting with yourself...
but its hard to live with it,,, I realize I have to build self-controlled not to let my 'evil side' of me drivin me to a direction or guide me to do sumthin I wouldn't had in mind for my self to be 'it' or 'there'...

People made mistakes,,that's what human do!!!
Even I sometimes afraid of making mistakes whereas ironically I STRIVE FOR PERFECTION...
sumhow to walk on e shaking bridge we have to pretend that it's a normal bridge so we will pass thru it easily...sumhow cares could got slipped too and become careless it seems...

To be very honest, I just wanna make everybody happy,,, fine at least...
I know its easy to find enemies and hard to find friends...
I juz wish by the time I step out this life everybody will cry,,
coz there were one time I've been nice to them all...