last few things

Hmm...if only everyday we can feel like this..hahaha


Dream-Plan-Achieve...well,,this is pretty much wot we're actually good at (Pose!!!)--coz we are camera whore... hahaha....


This is the impact of going to school!!!! mwahahahahaha This is our achievement from it "PhD" (Permanent Head Damage),,,,LOL



Last class,,,last pose in it??? and wots with the uniform people!! hahaha


Library!!!! YEEAAAHHH...who doesnt Loves Library anyway??? eh,,,where's Jen??hmm....she's not in e pic???


this is our lecture Mr. Iqbal Akhtar,,,da' dashing guy!!! hahaha

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am about to leave this place,,,
happy but sad,,,believe me,,i will shed a tear when I leave this place,,its like the whole 3 months we've been through e tough time in our live,,as in 2gether for almost everyday...
EVERYDAY...
me,,Leny,,Nora,,Sheilla,,Jen,,Andre,,Brittany,,and another creature that we dont counted as 'US' if u know who!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha.....am so bad,,,but I dont care,,she sells,,we buy,,hahahaha...
cant believe its juz 9 days left,,OMG...this is where exactly I had my time to THINK and THINK!!! might says,,this is,,HERE where exactly I found out things that I havent been thought about it before,,,its like a flash,,,but its truly meaningful for some1 like me,,,i spent my time to have flashback and consider more on wot is up next and wot should I do next.............
It seems bullshit like sum1 could changed in a short term,,but I DO....I feel like am a different person by now....it seems like I've been through revolution of my self,,towards sumtimes that I even underestimate my self dat I can PASS!!! hmmm...........

Today is our last class,,,,cant believe,,coz it seems like its YESTERDAY we juz stepped in our first lecture and seminar....and all the sudden we reach the end...........I've been blessed by the wave of luck...I juz deny it sometimes.......

Luv it!!!!!!!!

Imogen Heap - Goodnight and Go


Say goodnight and go.

Skipping beats,
Blushing cheeks.
I am... struggling..
Daydreaming,
Bed scenes in... the corner cafe
And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonic... tremblings
You get me every time.

Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you..
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.

Follow you home,
You've got your headphones on
And you're dancing
Got lucky;
Beautiful shot:
You're taking everything off
Watch the curtains wide open
And you're following the same routine;
Flicking through the TV, relaxed and reclining
And you think you're alone..

Oh, why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you,
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.

One of these days,
You'll miss your train,
And come stay with me...
{It's always say goodnight and go}
We'll have drinks,
And talk about things and,
Any excuse to stay awake with you...
You'd sleep here,
I'd sleep there,
But then the heating may be down again,
At my convenience...
We'd be good,
We'd be great together...

SCHOOL.....and COOL Pupils...

School.......
aaarrrggghhh....even hear e word made me feel eerie? any of u feel the same way too??
hahaha...this is e exact school depicted on the animation...which,,,none of any under age kids should watching this,,hahahahaha

wot a cool boys huh???
any of u agree wit it??dat that is wot we shud do??
LOL

significant//insignificant

current mood: mellow yellow

my goodness,,time is runnin so fast eh? didnt even notice that August is about to finish... cant wait til i got 2 c my baby again,,cant wait to step in e new life after this... end up being a student doesnt mean that problem solved tho',,it means,,the real tough life started,,this is e time i should start to think on how to survive by my self,,til when i hav 2 hang on under my parents'???
hmmm....easy to say,,,hard to do,,I BELIEVE....
didnt know dat this is gonna be dis much consideration 2 take....
well,,at least---i almost done with this school stuff....i found a guy that i want//wish dat he will get involved in my storyline//wish i could grow old with him>>>i wish....and my Mom>>>juz sit tight and see,Mom--I'll bring u happiness,,and gonna make u proud of ME,,an am sorry for being a hard ass kind of daughter,,but i know my self better that no one could be.... Dad>>>i dunno where r u by now,,,I DO MISS U,,,hows life daddy??it seems like u're longing but not belonging to me,,,i know wot you've been through,,i know how tough life is,,juz dont hide,,i've tried it doesnt works dat way---am still proud to be yours,,no matter wot they said!!!

Is acting upon our own selfishness in certain situations a lack of character, or is it possible that the very behaviour can be explained by psychology or even biology? How much does environment and genetics play a part in our behaviour?

One part of my heart smiles, to the other one that cries..

You can still shed some fire in your heart, without getting burnt..

I'm humble...I'm juz a tiny lil creature walking through the lines that already been there...and dunno where to end-----------there's nothin 2 prove,,nothin 2 show,,its all about feelings..all about instinct--in a distinction or even higher,,consideration underneath could make all of those either drawn or shown!!!

it beats me

stay sober

current mood: calm

heyya,,,
y'all probably askin wot da heck happenin on e title,,haha...
its real,,i stay sober these time around,,,probably e longest time i do,,and it feels great,,haha... cant believe i can do it...
i finally feelin grateful for everything i do,,i walked through time to time with concern...i juz realize am changed-in a good way,i grown up,and move forward...and it feels so damn good...
but then,,i dont feel sorry for wot i've been doing back then,,its my way to reach this stage,,its something different-a part of learning progress...i named it that way!!!

hhmmmm...
now,,2 weeks 2 go til i'm done with all this stuff...i cant believe times' runnin so fast,,eventho' it seems dat in my entire life there's 100 days in a month and 50 hours in a day...
prrrfffffffff.......tiring.....for sure
but gladly everything seems fine by now,,,and am about to step in e "big world"................
i know i can do it!!!!!
am hang in here,,and will doing better and better!!!!!
I LOVE MY LIFE
i really do.........now,i seems like have EVERYTHING...............
thanx God,,for e beautiful life i've got..............

well,,assignment left...
1. Subject Area--Film Overview,V for Vendetta(3000words)--due 30.08
2. International Media--BBC, European media (1500 word)--due 31/08
3. Professional Practice and Ethics--Reality TV,Big Brother (2000 word essay)--due 03/08
4. Graphic Comm MCATR3006???????--due 04/08>>>I dunno wtf is dis??but i found it in my timetable...OMG,,gotta find out wot is dat!!!!
5. EXAM--Public Info. Campaign--2 hours examination 05/09
(shud I explain one by one???better dont,,,haha....my life is misserable enuff caused by e never ending assingments....hahaahahha)
and after those all finish!!! AM DONE!!!! hahahahahaha......and will travel through infinity,,,wohohohoho...........YIPPY!!!!

well,,wish me luck everybody!!!!
=)
now,,its time to hit e bed,,,hahahahaha
good night,,,
selamat malam,,,
buenas noches,,,
boa noite,,,
buona notte,,,
gute nacht,,,
goede nacht,,,
bonne nuit,,,
hahahahaha..............................

Luv Luv,,,
Mmmmmuuuaacccckkkk...............

!!jigsaw!!

current mood: burnt

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bloody hell,,,,,,whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???
leave me alonnnnnnnnneeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

WHO AM I WITH??????IT DOESNT MATTER!!!!!!!!!! GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUNNO WOT ELSE 2 SAY,,,BUT AM EXTREMELY FUCKIN PISSED WITH EVERYTHING U PEOPLE HAS MADE ME BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARE Y'ALL HAPPY WITH THIS???????????FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dont mind me!!!!]

hmmmm...............

I MISS U....I know---es culpa mía---perhaps,,,juz to much into you...but I cant resist!!!

Yo aqui estare para ti,,Cuando siempre quieres de mi.
Te quiero, y me faltas tu,,Loca por tu amor, Te amo.
Si no estas aqui,,Que voy a hacer sin ti
Quedate por favor
Eres tu que no debes
Que sin ti es dificil,,y me pierdo, me faltas tu
Escuchamé, tu me vuelves loca,
y necesito ser solamente tuya
[no logro entender]
(((well,,Dave or Anybody,,feel free 2 correct my spanish,,haha---my first trial writting phrases in one tho'...hehe!!! Favor de corregirme)))



and YOU...yes,you...I MISS U...

I feel lost,,sumwhere,,outta nowhere,,it is already hard...

hmmm...few more days 2 get 2 c u again...

days by days I am more realize dat YOU is all I need,,no matter how tough e times,,terms and conditions,,as long as I got U to calm me down,,and heard u say 'I LOVE U' it is such a big relief... evrytime I close my eyes I thank e Lord that I've got U---when I'm with u,,I dont want it to ends...dunno how its leading to and no matter wot,,but as long as I got u NOW,,I'd hold u tight,,I know evrythin is gonna b ALRITE...

aaaahhhhh....

I feel so blue,,on thoughts of billion things runnin around my mind,,school's end soon,,new LIFE begin,,and facing deals as an adult,,sounds damn scary,,REALITY SUX!!!
1st thing 1st,,stop runnin away and blaming on things and start fully consentrating on urself Sarah!!!!!! u can do it... thinking on wot is e next step I should take rite after all these end...
well,,the more I try to reconsider,,the more deep of stress I felt,,the more I pretend that I dont care,,the more messed up everythings are.........
juz take it easy rite??yeah yeah yeah......its easy too,to talk........realisation is not easy dawg,,

well,,at least I have sumthin I can hang on,,,,people that I can count on...
and "sumONE" I can hold on---and this sumONE where I can finally have dreams,,am not naive,,,I'm not hoping sumthing impossible,,,but at least I am looking forward on happiness that we could achieve,,,either in terms of TOGETHER or on our own....Juz hoping al the best things wil happen,,,I deserve it rite????after wot I have been doing for ages....
I know I do...

sentirse incómodo con algo

trembling...
yes,,quite how I feel...
wondering on wot am doing??
like it or not,,working or not,,promissing or not...
the situation is quite tricky,,its riddling
too many things to consider,,too lil time
quite weak with fatigue of e short life-time with lotsmuch cases---feagued by conditions...
I hang on---on adversity
I conquer by no consciences as guidance
am I being exagerate??? Puzzling word by word 2 blame the world and life of wot i've faced???attempt not to admit things that clearly belong to me---and simultaneously strive for things that obviously absurd [I know its pathetic...]

I can say,,I go with the FLOW...
be calm and go low---
but how low can I go???

I wait and I wait,,
I make a move...whether its worthed or not
like it or not,,working or not,,promissing or not...

Rise and Shine.....

good morning......
its 4 in e morning rite now,,hehe(like Gwen Stefani's song)

I slept quite early last nite,pay back for e previous nite coz I was awake e whole nite doin my 'democracy assignment' hahaha......pfffff.....tiring hence confusing....
Moreover (hahaha)....well,,cant go back 2 sleep,,,
my Dad woke me up,,,OMG.......juz holla 2 talk rubish,,,hehehe......

well,,
here I am...
after done my morning pray,,,then....blogging,,,in e early morning,,,with a bottle of Yazoo banana and Cg..hehe
1st thing first when I woke up,,haha....I shud stop smoking (I know!)
but dunno howwwwwwwwww....

I felt sumthin missing...w/out knowing wot I've found
I felt I've finaly found...w/out knowing wot I've been looking for
I'm still LOOKING for...w/out knowing wot has been MISSING
People have DREAMS
some seeking and make it REAL...
some GIVE UP and throw it away...
some QUITE and juz KEEPING it for the rest of the LIFE----and I'm one of a kind

somethin fishy up here..pretty yet deadly...

dont mind me....
I hav class 2 do at 10.00
dont feel like going,,am so tired...hhhhhh.....
i cant go back 2 sleep.........
i'd rather try....

Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest... And keep that attitude even on the worst of days

What Kind of Sexy Girl Vibe Do You Have?

hahaha---quite much can say...

You Are a Passionate Kisser

You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat It's all about where your passion leads you

What's Your Kissing Style?

Hmmm...quite rite about passionate,,but NO!!i dont kiss strangers no matter how sexy they are..

You Are a Party Girl!

You give Paris Hilton and Tara Reid a run for their money (Who knows? You've probably even run into them at a club or two) While you do have fun - relax a little every so often All those drinks do nothing for your looks - or your bank account

Are You a Party Girl?

hahahaha...this one,,,u judge me!!!!

==>>>well,,juz for fun tho'

guts 2 get hum....

"Its NOT EASY to FALL - when u FLOAT like a CANNONBALL"
another BULLSHIT that i have to face!!!

i gotta go home..yes,,within a month,,,after am done with this then i'll be home...its not about home,,,its about nonsensical stuffs that rely on this undercover meaning that made by them....

again,,hav to do things that i dont want to do...imagining i hav to get back to e NIGHTMARE i used to had...dunno wot else they've plan for me,,,they juz dont hav guts to let me go,,,scared of losing their doll to play with,,and knowing that i'll run away because of wot they've done to me...

wotEVER,,,lets hav a look at it from different perspective,,,
this is where the beginning of the "REAL LIFE"...
i'll smack up e world and turn it way around--to see ME...yeah ME!!!!

i'll go home with this gurl perhaps,,hahaha...

Burlesque

my brain is goin down e drain...
I'm not ready facing reality,,

I'm a Robot in certain ways,,am not quite happy bout wot i'm doin...

So many times I have parted in silence without uttering a single word.

The aftermath is consequently awful. I left behind questioning the dreadful;

"Why didn't I say this, why didn't I say that?"--crap!!!

I'm stuttered..

nobody knows me but AT ALL...gimme a break!!!

gimme time to be more concern of myself...

The more I dwell upon this,

the more I'm convinced that limiting myself carry

no glory nor a point in itself.---shcizophrenia

BOLLOCKS!!!

lemme out from this fearness..fearness of facing the fear that's already 'on hand'...

no HOPES nor EXPECTATION...tired of disappointment!!!

lemme keep expecting the unexpected,,gimme MORE SURPRISE!!!!

am not happy---no bluffs

the destination all covered with mystery...

am all mezmerized by dream which such a fascinate power to putting me more in anxiety and spirit depleted---thats how it goes...

am sick of it!!!

the Chronicles of the MAN who owns my HEART...

well,,i can tell am fallin for this guy...

since the first time we met...didnt get to know him any further but sumtimes he came accross my mind,,beyond consideration...
well,,had chance to see him again after around 4 months we were not in touch,,and got a chance to chill out with him sumwhere in Singapore...
Oh my God,,we barely know each other but everything just *clicking* of me and him...unbelievable...i can feel sumthing amazing about this guy,,and after that nite,,when we met again,,and again,,and again..
got time to went home b4 i leave singapore,,and so i left,,for a week..believe me,,that was the longest week in my entire life..full with anxiety to be end,,so that i can juz go back 2 singapore and see him again...at that point of time,,i didnt know that it will be that hard,,i cant sleep,i cant think of sumthin else,,my heart beat fast everytime i've been thinking of him...rite there,,exactly on that time,,i knew that I'm in LOVE......i am so grateful that i had that time,,a week to consider and think deeper on how i feel,,and ensure my self am on e rite time finding my Mr.Right...
and I knew its WORTH for me to WIN his heart

I do adore the comfortness he made if we'r 2gether,,,
I love the way he Listens to every single thing i.am saying,,and love the way he let me know if i'm doing sumthing wrong,,,
I love the way he Kisses me,,the way he hugs me,,and the way he Looks deep into my eyes with his deadly eyesight,,,
love the way he speaks, or telling me jokes (eventho' i couldnt get e meaning of it sumtimes ;p), love the way he stares at things, love the way he snores and really appreciate if he gives me much more space on e bed,,even he almost fell down (hahahha...so sorry my dear)

he trully is the sweetest gift for me,,,well, i'm already super-glued to him tho'...

he's super cute,,he's mature and thats wot i really need,,hence humorous,,he's quite a chatter-box actually (sorry dear,,but everybody Luvs it),,he is able to understand me inside out,,well could be meaning "inside" too,,wotever u interpret e hints i gave,,but hell yeah!! this guy knows how to treat a girl...luvly and gentle...he made me feel like a 'principessa' in his castle of Love....wohohohohoho....well i juz been tackled by him and fell into his strong arms and dont wanna let go...
I juz love the way he is...and I wont try to be a sequin covered swan in front of him,,so that i would know whether he luv me juz e way i am or nah.....I open up my mask which is e most thing i scared of,,but hey!
am pretty sure he Loves me,,i can feel it,,,he told me so,,,and achieving his treatments and seeing him 'doing' me,, i can feel his love,,no matter how,,i juz LOVE this guy,,,and it goes deeper and deeper...

well,,sumtimes i cant believe my self that i hooked up with him tho' its juz so amazingly feels like living in a dream....
but sincerely..i had no doubt since the first time i stepped in 'here' with him..i juz hav my faith when i decided to say 'I LOVE YOU TOO'...
well,,wot I have now is juz unbelievably wonderful and undescribeable and dont even hav a tiny lil thought to put him away from me or put him out outside my storyline,,i want him to be a part of it,,and wishing i wont be relinquished by him---as he's the only one i trully desire...

"the GREATEST LOVES are those that have OVERCOME OBSTACLES because they have WITHSTOOD those things that life can thrown at them..."

well despite the fact that we hav faced rite now,,,i can make sure i can pass it,,,i am trying with all my best and dont mind sacrificing with everything i hav if i hav 2...fuck e distance,,sumtimes i had fear of losing him,,but i still hav faith,,rite here inside my heart,,coz the love that i give 2 him is not a bullshit...i'll hold on tight and wont let him go...all mine he has to be!
this is not a puppy love,,this is not a high school love like wot i had years back...this is the Love in a truth-condition which i can ensure that am not PLAYING AROUND,,its no longer a playground for me,,this is not a game i used to play...its a part of maturity that i hav to achieve whether i like it or not...if i fail with this,,i cant named my self as a 'Lady',,,
anyway,,everything i need-i've found in him,,then why should I try or even think of finding or seeking sumthin else which even impossible to find any better than him... he is juz one in a million,,the greatest of the bestiests that i've been encounter...

well,,i juz wish he would know that i LOVE him more than much,,NONE OTHER GIRL will LOVES him as much AS I DO,,
and i hope he feels the same way too....

Hhhhhh.......

God...
wot is with me???
sumthing really do bothering me so much...
hope everything will be alrite...
NOT AGAIN!!!! Pleeeaaasseeee.... NOT AGAIN!!!
I juz cant take it any longer...
its enough for me...
gimme the pain if I hav to get the pain....
I really do cant take this floating feels...

somebody...

anybody...

LaLa Land pt.III

Well,,Leny was havin a Birthday Bash Last Saturday 29th July,which is the actual B'day was on 23rd July,,that day she turns 20 years old..HAPPY BIRTHDAY my Dear,,welcome to the twenty's..sit tight and relax,,enjoy the game!!!hahaha Lurrrvveee yoouuu...
well,,that nite we started havin big meals at Nando's (as our Fav restaurant...) then....we call it a paaarrrtttyyyyy!!!!


again...our fav spot....BaaBar!!!
where else 2 go..
well,,dun worry,,our plan to go for a club marathon in Liverpool will COME..hahaha


o...owww...this is the latest 'Three Musketeers'
we hit e floor like "Whhoooaaaa"...LOL...dunno y last saturday we couldnt snap "proper" pictures..maybe we were havin so much fun,,so we dun care bout it...but this is our best snapshot for that nite babies...

well,,i can say,,,this is the first nite of TMC representation goin out 2gether (as in the complete version of US),,hahaha...
i had fun...so Much...
well,,LaLaLanders trully EXIST...hahahaha
Luv y'all FuLL (except e one with the red Top,,huahahaha)
sorry...no offense...but its true....am juz tellin the truth dawg...hahaha