the Awaken Night and I...

...I dunno why I got awake suddenly,, I was actually having a very nice sleep,,
I haven't really bloged well for so long,, barely even write on my diary (OMG,,so old fashion)- I know, but I still do that sometimes and I still keep my diary :P and I just grabbed it again and have a looked at it,,
I stayed at one particular page, which I my self don't really remember when I wrote it, I guess it was around 2 or 3 years back, I wish I have a scanner in my room so that I can scan and post it here,,hihihihihi... so that I can show my old hand writting and my nonsensical stuff that I wrote,,hihihihi (I know,,,as usual...)
well,,let me just retype it here then ^^

In overall terrible facts then come out big wishes
where soul would never rest to roll over
and eyes would never stop tearing..
Heart already is supposed to keep on beating,
but it beats without rhymes that carry the unknown meanings
..underneath the undefeated thoughts on...
why I have to be borned?
why I have tears?
why we have to die?
and what is the point of loving each other between two-hearts if there are zillion of hearts still wondering what is the meaning of love?!?!

Years and yearsI live on this earth
with a simple wish which never ever gonna comes true
..severe hope bellow the pieces of broken heart
..I wish my Dad will come home,,
by then I know everything is gonna be alrite!!
Impacable causes & troubles are just started from the root where everything happens and strikes everything out...

Life is such a horror theme
and Love is a bitch..
it comes and goes, contain beautiful lies and dare to conquer everything
after u drawning inside it
...but just imagine life without bitching around!?!
you will striked out yourself,, you will stuck and die in a boredom..
or...
live with it and enjoy the pain
and it's all about the beautiful ones
so you will die with the big ass smile on your face :)

-sarah-

LOL
well,,dats wot made me stared at for few minutes,,hihih..
anyway,,gotta get back to bed now...

Quote of the day:

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not" - K.Cobain

Juz the Random feeling...

I feel somethin missing, without knowing what have I found
I feel I have found something, without knowing what have I been looking for
and I still feel like looking for, without knowing what has been missing

Sometimes I realizing the undefeated eagerness that cause me acting so fierce and uncontrolled its juz because too many things going through my mind,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, too many things I wanna grab in one shot!!!!!!!!!!!!! and its always about,, "WHY can't I have the thing like what she/he has???"

Now, wot I have to learn for my self is just to learn how to pleased my self in grateful, and start to think about the thing that I think is not the thing that I deserved is actually the thing that I think "NOT" and its the thing that I should think about it twice to hold on it so that I won't missed the thing just because I don't think its the good thing for me :D :D :D :D

The thing is (again...)
I should learn how to appreciate MY SELF, and feel grateful that I've been blessed this much and never think that somebody else's grass is greener than mine...
so,,,I should have wake up in the morning and start to say thankful that I still got chance to run another day of my life,,the brand new day,,,each and everytime I woke up in the morning,,when the sun is shinning through my window (although sometimes its annoying,,I should be glad by it :D) and the noisy rooster that wakes me up early in the morning,,,hahahahaha...thats how my 'morning orchestra' sounds like-and I LUV IT!!!
well,,light up your day Sarah!!!



QUOTE of the DAY:

'You know, we're all whores, but only some of us get paid.' (Virginia Fallon (Demi Moore) in Bobby, 2006)