Butterflies in my stomaCh...

I move...
get all my muscle worked out
I think...
force my brain cells to work
I ran...
my heart pumpin harder,,
n my blood circulate faster
I love...
pour my heart with shimmered water cooler with a nice smell of summer breeze

I made it
doesnt mean dat I wont regret it
I forgot it
doesnt mean dat I dont want it
I regret it
doesnt mean I am always right
I love it
doesnt mean that I deserve it,,
also doesnt mean that I have to break down when I fallen for love

I conquer the world with my own thought,,,
that I think everything is not always possible as wot people normally believed..

I am a coward...
coz I know I am not always rite...
after I've done sumthing,,,doesnt mean it will turns out real good...
but sumhow I always know that I've been BLESSED with certain goods and conditions which others dont have 'em...
I have got everything I have always wanted...
but sumhow...

all the GOOD THINGS make me worried,,,
I got worried of losing the things dat right on my palms...

I was Sorry...

If only I could turn back time???
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If only I could,,,not juz 'IT' dat am gonna fix...
imagine millions scars I hav by now!!!
sumtimes I really wanted to scream,,
right time - right place
is juz NEVER EVER happen to me...

I've had enough of this parade.
I'm thinking of the words to say.
We open up unfinished parts,
Broken up, it's only love.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Standing here looking out e window
My night's long - Cause I don't have you
How can I be so damn demanding?

But I can't let go///I juz wanna lean on u...
I dont wanna let u down,,
I dont want it to stop!!!

Its all MY FAULT...
I break down n cry - I scratched ur heart - I felt it
I still fallin-and will keep on fallin
coz my love dont stop...
but I dont hav guts,,to come up n stand next 2 u again...
I dropped blood in plain water,,
its all too late...














u're my heart---
is there anybody can LIVE without e heart????

Jammin' in DREAMIN...

Sumthin am good at it is dreaming!!!
n thus sumthin am NOT so good at it,, is makin my dreams come true!!!

I thought I had handled it so well, but I guess it’s normal. I'm human after all. I need to go through this.
A lot to process, but above all, a great lesson. I guess I’m just afraid of the fog.

Juz liq any other girl...

Sumtimes I felt grateful dat I don’t have anything, coz by then I realize – I have nothing to loose…

Sumtimes I grudge my self on being ‘stoned’ in a way.. couldn’t feel wot I feel,, couldn’t see wot I see,, and couldn’t differ which is which… in other words…its fun 2 be SILLY sumtimes…

The interesting thing is that I realized how complex human behaviour is. And although we are of the same species, some traits do differ. Some people live by their morals and never act out of selfishness, when others act in a complete opposite way. I stood in between. I realized that even good people can act out on shady behaviour. I am not in any way implying that that is an excuse! It is obviously wrong to hurt other people's feelings in order to get our own satisfaction.

On the other hand, I have a hard time believing people are either good or bad. Human nature depicts the complete opposite. Our primarily drive is to be selfish.
I myself know that I am a social creature with different levels of weaknesses and strengths.
which make everything so complex...
anyway...no such thing could truly defined...everything might juz switched at anyhow

am gambling in complication and stuttered in confusion...
dat made me be a slow walker,,,but never mind;

Am a slow walker,,, but I never walk backwards

“Abraham Lincoln”

If only life is juz about love…

If only Fairy tales are real…

If…

Prrffffff.......