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SO??? HALLE BERRY huh???? HAHAHHAHAHAHA =D

blaze

"Let go of ANGER... Its an ACID that burns away the delicate layers of your HAPPINESS..."

and thats how I should do right now....

well...dont bother me if my face turns to be frawn...
dont look at me when i burst because of the madness that I have...
sometimes i feel naive to faked the smile-i'm tired of break down & cry!!!
loosing my faith when i'm in anger,,and forgot the gift in e realm of mine that I supposed to be gratefully obliged...

-rain down on me-
All my days of misery, someone could have taken 'em from me.

a bit PATCHY

"Love yourself, or nobody else will!"
"Live the day today, and not tomorrow"

---

Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes clear to the bone...

I'd rather being the stupidest among e smarts,,rather than being the smartest among dumbs!!!

and talking about obsession__sumtimes it could be causing a sharp stinging sensation

How many people obsessed with WEALTHINESS and FAMOUSNESS?

thinking of how many mansions+rides they have, thus, smooth+fabulous skin they have with nice shaped body and nice cut-back...

HEY!!! you cant be too thin or too rich..or can those make ensured they'll get wot actually they have been pursuing about?? oh..ya!!! its called HAPPINESS...
those insolent peps couldnt understand...
I think havin a lot of money can actually cause grief and sadness---while they're greedily happy digging more and more GOLDS and DIAMONDS...

sorry but it's true---if ur name is Rockefeller or Kennedy,,,
can u ever be sure dat somebody is being nice because they genuinely like you???
wudn't u always be wondering if they were more interested in ur money?MONEY.MONEY.MONEY...
Christina Onassis was one of the richest women in the world - when she died,,, i don't think she died with SMILE...

We WOMEN...

are too hard on ourselves,,WAY TOO HARD...

think about how generous and forgiving we are when it comes to other people.....

and how impossibility critical when it comes to judging ourselves.....
no mater how - as long as we can wear Roberto Cavalli or Marc Jacobs or Louis Vuitton or Versace or wot ever they named it,, being the Femme Fatale or the Pompous,, try to enjoy e life as an Anorexic,, and even Boost our ass to be on e front line - be smart but in fact juz appeared like BIMBO...

we focus on our problem areas-->>>

we look in the mirror and all we can see is

"SomeTHING MISSING"

neva mind--juz sum thoughts came accross my mind

--IF U GET WOT I MEANT--

work HARD...play HARDER

hmmm...

I'm done with sum WORKS

soo....relief.........
school is pain in e ASS man!!!
but its alrite...i can handle it...
i'm a big gurl...

life is a PARTY...party is a LIFE---
so...PARTY ON!!!! hahahaha

hmmm..will get back on this--

now,,i need sum rest,,and back to "e field"
hahahaha

-luv-

me--be HONEST =)

FOURTY secrets about yourself.
[be honest no matter what]. or u'LL get cursed

[one] what is your natural hair color?
[honestly] dark brown
[two] where was your default picture taken?
[honestly] baq hum
[three] what's your middle name?
[honestly] Lirasasti
[four] your current relationship status
[honestly] occupied
[five]does your crush like you back?
[honestly] i bet HE IS,,hahaha
[six] what is your current mood?
[honestly] HAPPY,,FED UP with assignment
[seven] what color underwear are you wearing?
[honestly] wait!!!let me peep!!PINK,,hahaha
[eight]what makes you happy?
[honestly] one guy,,dat I voluntarily super glued to...;p
[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
[honestly] my childHOOD
[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
[honestly] bird or cat ^^
[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
[honestly] yupp..u don wanna know bout it
[thirteen] something you do a lot?
[honestly] singing
[fourteen] what is your favorite color?
[honestly] pink,yellow,brown
[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
[honestly] mi amigo
[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
[honestly] R.Felisha, my ex-classmate in Junior high, n another one i forgot
[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
[honestly] 3 days ago
[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
[honestly] yupp,,many times
[nineteen] if you could have one super-power what would it be?
[honestly] invisible woman
[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
[honestly] attitude then appearance
[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
[honestly] either caramel macchiato with xtra espresso(on a cold day) or caramel frappuccino with dbl xtra espresso(on a hot day).....AS ALWAYS
[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
[honestly] hahaha...this is quite trickie
[twenty-three] favorite city?
[honestly] vienna
[twenty-four]when was the last time you lied?
[honestly] hmmm..was trying...but it didnt works...not gud at it,hahaha
[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
[honestly] yeah...y not?
[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
[honestly] drinking coffee
[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?
[honestly] wot mars' language?hahaha
[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
[honestly] my boo's armpit's smells,,hihihi...luv it!!!
[twenty-nine]if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
[honestly] TERRIFIC
[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
[honestly] 1st of JUNE.....oh no,,juz got many hugs from leny few days baq..hehe
[thirty-one] have you ever been kissed in the rain?
[honestly] i'll try it,,,with spiderman,,hehe...
[thirty-two] what are you thinking about now?
[honestly] 'him'..and 'HOW CAN I FINISH THIS ASSIGNMENT,IF I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THIS GUY????' hahaha...
[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
[honestly] graduate and quite smoking,,hahaha
[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
[honestly] Mr. Iqbal Akhtar did sumthing NOT NICE to me n LENY!!!
[thirty-five] how often you pray?
[honestly] 5 times i supposed,,,but mostly missed e early morning one,,ughhh!!!! come on sarah...wake up early!!!
[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
[honestly] WOT???nah...
[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
[honestly ] Sarah Ribeiro,,hahaha.. taken from this dude..hahaha
[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your boyfriend/girlfriend?
[honestly] NOPE!!
[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
[honestly] HAHAHA!!!! ex is an ex man,,,NO FLASH BACK...
[fourty] name one of song that describes your feeling right currently?
[honestly] Tahiti 80-Heartbeat=>> "Can you feel my heartbeat when I'm close to you...I never find,,another way to say,,I LOVE U MORE EACH DAY...its quite romantic,i know,,thats how i wanna feel 2day...i wanna feel this way" =)

hahaha...
dats all folks!!!

"Floccinaucinihilipilification"

I conquer my LIFE within camouflage...

agaIn...

dunno how 2 get rid of e sadness and sorrows---
under few circumstances live in HEDONISM way seems so fine...

come FLY AWAY...leave e sorrows...high away
then.....
FALL DOWN---
e WOUND even WORSE

come fly away--take e sorrows--leave it UP THERE
LANDED SAFELY..

hurdling my condition from any harmful surroundings
no such thing like drink e poison like eating glass
better face e REALITY
sabbaticalized my self from any JETSET base
NO pursuit of pleasure...

I am making e PLEASURE

e TRUTHFULNEZ bout LIBRA

Libra..
the seventh sign of the zodiac, symbolized by scales (used for weight measurement).
Astrologers consider people whose birthdays occur between September 23 and October 22 to be born under the sun sign of Libra.
The planet Venus rules Libra. Libra is an air sign.

According to astrologers, Libras have diplomatic, refined, intelligent, thoughtful, warm, and social natures. Because of the sign's relationship with the planet Venus (named after the ancient Roman goddess of beauty and love), Libras tend to be romantic and crave relationships.

Typical Libras, however, want an idealized meeting of the minds in an atmosphere of civility, refinement, and reasonableness. They do not place as much importance on deep emotional intimacy or physical passion. Libras also enjoy comfort and luxury.
Astrologers believe that Libras have strong senses of justice. They carefully weigh opposing sides of any issue and are keenly aware of other people's preferences. Although Libras like to take leadership roles, their need to be fair and to please everyone equally can sometimes make it difficult for them to make decisions.

Typical Libras are skilled peacemakers and diplomats who desire balance and harmony in all situations and will do almost anything to avoid confrontations. Professions traditionally associated with Libra include the law, politics, the arts or design, mediation, diplomacy, and counseling.
Bibliography:
"Libra (astrology)." Microsoft® Student 2007 [DVD]. Redmond, WA: Microsoft Corporation, 2006.


[yeah rite....e ones with colors which i think is correct-based on my realization and other libras' opinion] LOL


LIBRAS can change thoughts in a matter of seconds that we are more severe than the two faced Geminis..that we are the true dual-personality.. (Mr. A-red) ---which i agree wif

my personal explanation will be;
we r liq CHAMELEON.. we r UNPREDICTABLE...

the astronomi simbol of balanced-but mostly one side always more heavier than e other..

we could even sense compassion beyond our own belief--even we could hav compassion of the compassion that we felt..

we could ROLLED OUR MIND 24/7....

so,, "SETTLE" is not e word for libras..

(these r true--based on librans dat i knew)



for my self,, I could be a 'GOOD LISTENER', hence, its HARD for me to find ONE..

I dont BEAR a GRUDGE!!!
but quite sensitive-once i got TRAUMATIZE,,,believe me-it goes wif me for ages,,probably 'til I DIE...
I hav quite LOW SELF ESTEEM---because I knew i'm juz a tiny lil gurl in this enormous WORLD...
for my self; i'm very smart.. and yet stupidLy dumb.. makes sense since i can be phiLosophicaL.. and yet eXtReMeLy retarded at times.. im quiet.. but loud..i stare.. but yet i dont..things always might work in two ways-might be controvertial-peculiar-but believable...

anyway...
once u get annoyed by me or hurted by me-U WONT FORGET IT fore rest of ur LIFE.. thus, once u get ADDICTED by me-U cant DETACHED (hahahaha,,,yea rite!!!)
i'm dat kind of gurl that people might LOVE TO HATE or HATE TO LOVE...

thats all bout it I guess...any of u wanna add sumthin,,or agree or disagree wif me..feel free to interupt!!!
cheers!!

hmm...

this is wot WE DO!!! hahahaha....

me-rando-io====>>>MArtini Day

"our" extravagant nite...

hmm.....anythin 4 ya babe!!! mmmuuuaaccchhh.....

as ALWAYZ....over and OVER again!!!! =D

HAHAHAHA.....we r FINE ;p

I thought it was juz BBQ partY!?! y we end UP @ diz Place???

this is me...hahaha... =D

bLitz^^

RITE!!!

this is exact thOught dat I should impLanted inside my BRAIN...

anyone seeing me,,might thinking i'm havin 2 personalities...

sumtimes I admit things,,,sumtimes denial came across my thought!!!

i dunno...

juz leave me ALONE---if u get annoyed by me

but,, this is ME........THEN???

Ode to e NICE guRL...

i dunno.....


the messy has became the messier....
n i know soon will become the messiest...
do I hav 2 run away AGAIN???
i'm TOTALY SICK of e thing dat has been going on OVER and OVER AGAIN!!!!

Too much mind, heart, and soul has gone into fixing something that very obviously prefers to stay broken....things will remain e same for me.....no such thing as the reset button,,,its too late for dat...



i'm fed up with ma own life....everything juz dare to ruined---
iz there anybody/anywho knew me but AT ALL?????????????????
where am I?
what am I supposed 2 do now?
am I e one 2 b blamed on for all of these STUPID things dat going ON and on and on and on?????

All things juz come n go.....

apparently I feel like I am TRAPPED in 'here'...

trapped between my obligation and rightful authority...

and clearly FOOLED in consequences that I've took because I HAVE TO...
I cant juz say 'this way'...is damn tiring...maybe I juz feel like I want 2 reach é 'peak' eagerly...so????wot should i do??? i gotta pay wot i should get rite?! [wot eva'...]


i'm a KID---like a fish in the pond...

raised in certain custody dat i'm actually didnt get any single meaning of IT!!!!!!!!!

Aaaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm afraid i may hav faked it and caught DEAD in dis place!!!

i hav a beautiful life-i supposed...

i juz bewail it....many of 'em stare at me and said 'how lucky i am'

they juz dont kno dat i juz 'bend in surface'...

I'm juz a FAILURE....if they only knew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm far from PERFECT---y'all could call me "freak"...even i knew my self is it... even my heart n brain dont get along,,,evrybody does--but mine is worst...


i dunno...

talking bout MY REALITY its juz such a never ending story...its all sux tho'...
so, pardon me while i burst into hypocrisy.. n sumtimes naivete turns me to be so unpredictable..
am runnin ma time to be 'there'..to be 'somebody'.. but, 'ME'

neva' mind!!! i really hav no idea wot i hav wrote about!!!
I'm outta my mind probably!!!!dont bother me!!!

I SPLENDIDLY defined (wtf???!!!!)

e ReaSon y I SMILE....

I woke up this morning,,caused by my phone was buzzing,,

drowsy n lazy 2 c wot is Up...

then...

"Last night i asked my angel to watch over you.....but he came back very soon and said 'an Angel doesnt watch over another Angel ;-p"

i got a msg from sumONE far far away...
sumONE dat makes my days so delightful,,
sumONE as enchanter who makes my life more meaningful
e ONE dats able to wake me up from my unconsiousness n see wot i hav to see..
wif him,,,there's no reason to 'pout in distaste'...

...HAppY is aLL I GoT...

he's such a beautiful surprise..

IheartU

dayz down here!!!

hmm......sumwhere.......wondering.......considering........well-doing.........hmmmm ;p


















first thing first...rite after landed in m'chester,,lol... =D
"CIGS!!!"

First day...
"Dean Walter's Building"
wot a 'HECTIC' day we had===>>

====>>> we r...LIVERPOOLIANs' (lol)







































LUVLY day,,wif luvly GURLZ =D

yeeeeeaaaaa....
c how happy we r!!!

4 y'all who wants 2 know more bout GURLS...

>When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

>When a girl looks down,
It means shes uncomfortable.

>When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

>When a GIRL looks at U with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long U will bearound.

>When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after afew seconds,
She is not at all fine.

>When a GIRL stares at U,
She is wondering why U are lying.

>When a GIRL lays on Ur chest,
She is wishing for U to be hers forever.

>When a GIRL calls U everyday,
She is seeking for Ur attention.

>When a GIRL wants to see U everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

>When a GIRL says "I love you",
She means it.

>When a GIRL says that she can't livewithout U,
She has made up her mind that U are her future.

>When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss U more than that.

>When a GIRL is jealous about other people seeing U more than she does,
its because she loves U and misses U so much..

cLear enough guyz????!!!!

juz a lil BREAK of moi...=)

hahahaha....funny rite???
__________________________________________________________

==>>Now,,i hav seen a bulletin board by sumone from another site about this issue!!!

WOT things bout guy could turn me ON!!!!lol

> FOR GIRLS - About guys:juz answer ON, OFF,> or DC (Don't care):

> Is taller than you: ON
> Is shorter than you: OFF
> Wears braces: DC
> Has blue eyes: DC
> Has hazel eyes: deep luvly eyes--dat is really turns me ON ;p
> Drinks alcohol too much: DC
> Smokes: DC (coz i'm a smoker as well)
> Plays sports: DC
> Smiles a lot: if no reason then i will totally OFF
> Calls you just to say Hi: DC
> Compliments you: (i dun believe u!!!hahahah)
> Good dancer: totally ON
> Wears jewelry: DC
> Has brown hair: hmmm,,,dats HOT hahaha!!
> Has Black hair: its ok
> Has blonde hair: ewwww.....
> Has red hair: definetely OFF
> Makeup: NO F***in WAY
> Can make you laugh at any given moment: humorous guy really turns me ON,,haha
> Loyal: ON
> Plays guitar: ON---
> Plays drums: dats HOT
> Sing: ON---so we can sing 2gether ;p
> He's buff (muscles): OFF...i prefer a chubby guy,,lol
> He can draw: DC
> Easily jealous: ON--dat means he loves me so much aight???
> Doesn't eat meat: wtf???
> Doesn't eat vegetable: DC,,,its his choice
> Has a tattoo: if it suits him,,,i DC
> Has a lip ring: not my type...
> has tongue ring: eeewwwwww.....
> honest and open: ON
> goes to church: DC

well,,,,dats a bit about how guys could turn me ON or OFF...
(^.^)

NeVeR tHouGht I wOuLd

And I know this much is TRUE,,
Baby, you have become my ADDICTION...
I'm so strung out on you,,
I can barely move - but I LIKE it... (Ne-Yo)

he's e SWEETEST drug dat I really dun want 2 get addicted to,,,
but I cant---feels like my heart's breach wants him MORE n more...

cant take my MIND out of U---wishin u were HERE so bad---
with u,,,i can see colours clearly,,,i can breathe easily,,,i can sleep tightly,,,i can smile widely,,,
and i could cry BADLY if u're leavin me...

to e guy dat I adore---LOVIN u is too easy for me
keepin u to 'stay' wif me,,i dunno...
i'm scared of loosing u rather than i have to be addicted to u...

LOVE U to BITS

...bLooDy buGGer...

The hidden LOVE soLemniFied my FeeLiN...
Wondering the sorrows - I sense the compassion - I’ve built for you...

But then I succumb to the imaginations I have in my mind.
It’s just a temporary scene I adore,,,
Even I can’t own the love I truly DESIRE...

I'm tired to go UP and back DOWN...
tiRed of fLung oVer b'caUse of LOVE,,n diGgiNg bacK my HeaRt to throw the fEeLs aWay...
tiRed of kEep CoMe n Go!!!
i waNt 2 sTay...settled...calm down...
LiVe w/Out woRriEs n hav a HeaRt made by metal-coz stone realLy cant feel anYthin...

I hav to leave,,FIND another way,,
cross over the BRIDGE dat actually made by US..
I know that I'm known that I'm not fond of asking or giving
True or false it may be...
Leave me aLone,,giMme a BREAK...
I move ON...
I sinCereLy compLetely,,apoLogize for doing wot i DID...

=)

I'm on a high... on a HIGH...
there's NUTHIN moRe 2 iT!!!!!!!!!!
we R e SEA n e SKY--- e BluE arOund tHrough IT...

I hav e SUN,,it's a STAR
y sHouLd I REFUSE it???

It's a Lie, it's a Lie...
Don't you believe it,,'Cause I've tRied n I've triEd
And I can't really see iT...
I'm trapped inside---My conspiracy of "happiness"
(duncan sheik)

=)
=)
=)

[gEnUiNe]

doNt be fOoled By mE - by tHE face i weAr
For i weaR a thousand maSks dat i'm afraiD to taKe it oFF
aLL mine, thus, NoNe of 'em is me
i gIve the impressioN dAt i'm SecuRe,
dAt conFidence is 'Ma namE' n CooLnez is 'ma GaMe' anD i need No-oNe................

DONT judge me by e COVER of myself
bUt,,donT believE me---
e surFace maY seEms smooth but itZ juSt ma mAsK,
ever-varyiNg n evEr-conceaLing beneaTh lies No complacency...
(eager to pleased)
beNeatH lieS confusion AnD feaR AnD lOneLyNez...
buT i hiDe tHis..................... juZ tRyin 2 b POSEY would DO...............
i dOnT waNT anybodY tO KnoW it!!!!!!!
i knEw dat theRe is a VENOM in nUmeRicaL LieS,,,
perhaps SOONER or LATER liVE in a MAsKs will OpeN-EndEd......

i DunNo wheTher iTs a maSsiVe caLamiTy or sHould b a BEAUTIFUL suRpriSe...

I panic At the thought of my weaknez & fear being exposed...
That's why i create ma mask to hide behinD...
i donT likE to hidE-i doNt likE to plaY superficiAl phonEY gamEs,,

i waNt tO STOP playin' tHem
i wAnt to stare at things n havin compliment of iT...juZ act NorMaL!!!

I wAnt to bE genuine AnD spontaneous and....

-ME-