here i.am
outspoken and so insecure
dunno wots in mind but i juz feel overwhelmed from every single thing i had..
i do exist,,i do take a part or two in this extraordinary game that people played,,
but i felt alienated-ill at ease...
sick of the fact that i've taken role in the camouflage and drawning in fakeness in terms of move to deceive opponent...no win win solution in life-its either winning or losing...
well,,who am.i? no one but a small tiny gurl that comes over wit sorrows and with a vengeance kicking losers that has tried to ruin her life...i dont know anything about life,do i? am juz bloody 20 and hav nothing to do to change the world...sick of living my life and bangled hence hav ease of movement by myself..FRANKNESS---yupp,,quite exactly wot i.am!! i've tried and i've tried but still,,no one will get wot i want...desire??--bulshit!!! things i truly deserve??--yeah,,in my dream...i got served,,and being sucked at e sametime...
yadda..yadda..yadda.....
i know erything is so damn DULL...its juz too late for my path to be moisted so that i could slide up through it... i retorted to sum up e overall meanings of my achievement and deservire...tiring,,its been ages but dun know where i regarded to,,where to go,,wot to do,,
FEAR of seeing the end of my line, perhaps...hang on,,am not scared of death,,,everybody will hav their turn,,am not a saint--far from that to be exactly...but i know,,my heart is not emptied from beliefs of all-knowing e Creator of the universe, worshiped as the only One whom i take my bowed to..yeah,,other thing bout me,,fully sins,,but no regret of doing my duty of geting back to e one of above...this is me...being anarchist in my own perception,,rebellion under certain custody that i never ever will understand of the rules beyond it...
am happy being me,,wish i could go on my own and none other will spoil it,,,lemme stand here and concern and taking myself as how i wanted to...leave me alone!!!
am finishing my work,,,knitting my own trail,,and fill up my path with sumthin beside boredom---hope one day when i finish my duty in life,,everybody will reminds me beside knowing only my name on their head...
might still be long way to go...i'll enjoy it...
childhood---DONE,,,maturity---stepped in not long ago and hell yeah!!!plenty things to do rite here,,,producing kids and having new life with sumone whom from his rib i've created from...dunno how it will be...but better be good!!! hahaha...wot else could it be?
underlined;
am not done with this...
i wont give up,,,
rise and shine Sarah!!!
outspoken and so insecure
dunno wots in mind but i juz feel overwhelmed from every single thing i had..
i do exist,,i do take a part or two in this extraordinary game that people played,,
but i felt alienated-ill at ease...
sick of the fact that i've taken role in the camouflage and drawning in fakeness in terms of move to deceive opponent...no win win solution in life-its either winning or losing...
well,,who am.i? no one but a small tiny gurl that comes over wit sorrows and with a vengeance kicking losers that has tried to ruin her life...i dont know anything about life,do i? am juz bloody 20 and hav nothing to do to change the world...sick of living my life and bangled hence hav ease of movement by myself..FRANKNESS---yupp,,quite exactly wot i.am!! i've tried and i've tried but still,,no one will get wot i want...desire??--bulshit!!! things i truly deserve??--yeah,,in my dream...i got served,,and being sucked at e sametime...
yadda..yadda..yadda.....
i know erything is so damn DULL...its juz too late for my path to be moisted so that i could slide up through it... i retorted to sum up e overall meanings of my achievement and deservire...tiring,,its been ages but dun know where i regarded to,,where to go,,wot to do,,
FEAR of seeing the end of my line, perhaps...hang on,,am not scared of death,,,everybody will hav their turn,,am not a saint--far from that to be exactly...but i know,,my heart is not emptied from beliefs of all-knowing e Creator of the universe, worshiped as the only One whom i take my bowed to..yeah,,other thing bout me,,fully sins,,but no regret of doing my duty of geting back to e one of above...this is me...being anarchist in my own perception,,rebellion under certain custody that i never ever will understand of the rules beyond it...
am happy being me,,wish i could go on my own and none other will spoil it,,,lemme stand here and concern and taking myself as how i wanted to...leave me alone!!!
am finishing my work,,,knitting my own trail,,and fill up my path with sumthin beside boredom---hope one day when i finish my duty in life,,everybody will reminds me beside knowing only my name on their head...
might still be long way to go...i'll enjoy it...
childhood---DONE,,,maturity---stepped in not long ago and hell yeah!!!plenty things to do rite here,,,producing kids and having new life with sumone whom from his rib i've created from...dunno how it will be...but better be good!!! hahaha...wot else could it be?
underlined;
am not done with this...
i wont give up,,,
rise and shine Sarah!!!
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