nothing brings me down...

~Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery,
but today is a gift,
that's why we call it "present"~ Oogway-Kung Fu Panda

I know I am not strong enuff..but think about how hard the rocks are...even the continuous water drops could make a hole on it--and I am not made by rocks...only flesh and bloods

let me dive in and blend with the deep sea...the corals does survive in it....the fishes too,,lol... maybe by then I will find out the way on 'how to be strong'
and perhaps that is wot people called

"Learning by Doing"

hhhhhhh.........

LIVE the LIFE you LOVE and LOVE the LIFE you LIVE

My day is craaaazzzzyyyyy....

OMG.. If only my brain is core 2 duo... quatro core will be much helping,,,but,,, nevermind.. maybe I should upgrade my RAM to 4 GB instead of 1 or 2
Phheewww.... in your dream sarah, u havnt touch back to the future yet,
HOHOHOHO...
So...what should I do then, I am so borrreeeddddd...
my parents took of to Batam this Morning, I got to drop 'em early morning, duuuuddddeeeeee... and now am at the office keep yawning my self...
while am busy sending application and getting in touch with Rohde & Schwarz's people for the preparation of our next tenders and all.. yepp,, 'microwave radio link' u have any idea bt it?
I my self, though it was sum kind of a microwave with radio build-in, hihihihihi....

anyway,,
I passed by sum blogs of my pals and I saw sum photos of them that they took with LOMO Camera,,, dude!!! its so cool... 1st I was like, 'hmm...nice pics' but then i was like thinking my self as I saw the photo is like digital thingy, which I am not so into it, ever since I'd prefer the analog camera with old style way of processing, hihihhi...since I left off that 'Part' of my hobby, I've been waaaaaaaaayyyy left by the development of it,,,hihihihi (wotever..)
but then I saw that cute Lomo Camera,and its using negative films for photos, I just go like,,,woooottttt??? DUDE!!! am gonna grab any of those soon!! hihihihi...(once I get paid, of course,,hihihihi) so, soon, which means, next month..hohohoho...
I dunno I am all the sudden get flicked by photography mood again, I cant believe I threw my talent away(WOOOTTT!!!!) but seriously, I got my level3 for that but whyyyyyyyyyyyyy???? why I just cant believe my self I left it off... well,, this is wot my Mom's want, so, I gotta do it with gleefully (*wink)

anyway man,, gotta get back to work,,,its crazy... 3 hours left,, YAAYYY!!!! so I can go home and sleep, even the air-con in my room is not working because there's sumkind of stupid electricity problem (only upstairs,,hihihi,,,wierd rite!?) I DONT CARE... I NEED MY SLEEP!!!
Oh ya,, I can sleep in my mom's room,,since they're not around,,,hehehehe...

anyway..
HAVE A NICE TUESDAY EVERYONE..

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Everything you taught me and everything you showed me
It never seemed that I would listen to anything
But you’ve got my attention more than you know
I take it in, I dealt with it,

but I waited too late to use it...

I know I did it
Maybe I went overboard to prove a point
But sometimes my pride gets in the way
Maybe I need some time away to get my head together..

I know this was my last chance... I know it supposed to be no ''LAST ONE'' - "happened"
I may never get to hold your hands again
I can't say that I’m a better woman
I’m sorry...

I’m so sorry that I tore your heart apart last night
And I’m sorry if I scarred you again today
I didn’t mean to take your dreams and make them
seem so TRITE

I sincerely...
Completely...
Apologize for doin’ wot I did

my diamond in the sands

LOVE is not only a word...even a word does have a meaning different people,,different articulation LOVE is not a thing...u cant see it,,u cant touch it but it does exist!!! LOVE is a feeling,, u can see it with the eyes of your heart u can grab it with the arms of your heart u do FEEL it!! it grows... I juz wonder how and why love could be vanished (as wot sum ppl said so)

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the compilation of 2 different person under one roof of love as we called 'Relationship'
IS NOT EASY...
we do need mutual understanding,, it is a two way street,, it is a bout take and give,, it is about fidelity,, and TRUST,, all together under one umbrella...
it is a package,,one single part missing--then...I'm sorry to say... It wont works

you can say its a team-work,, the couple need to fight for each other,, to corporate and give their attention and dont forget Maintenance... once it works u dont want it to end that fast do u?

doesnt matter abt diffences, different mind sets or even backgrounds and habits and behavior...
there's a beauty in a differences,, sumtimes people couldnt see that..
wot do think that there are (+) and (-) for batteries and magnets, why there are AC--DC for electric stuff,, and u see there's north and south which is the opposite way but they both still called the same as "POLE".. and you should see this,,,

(image taken without permission,,hehe)

well,, this is exactly how I depict or picturing the machine of a couple..hihihihi
the generator that keeps it working and moving as well as its supposed to be functioned.
it should be fits to each other,, otherwise it wont moving,, it wont works...

exactly like wot I've been encountered my self

You know my sun won’t shine if You stop loving me…

This is Miracle!!!

I don’t believe my self could fell in love this much…

And YOU are here,,with me…

Yes,, I fall in LOVE with you as much as I want the sun to kept shinning thru my days…

I know I won’t regret my love to you… I won’t regret I’ve had one Lifetime on this earth,, I’d thankful for the LOVE that I have,, because right before I exhale my last breathe, I found the most amazing endowment that God has been blessed me with – it is YOU…

People said “distance could kill the love that u have” – by not seeing each other every single minutes and not being able to touch and adore each presence…

It is not valid for me,,

I was afraid of facing the hundred miles gap in between our love…

Thought I was a coward, but you’re my strength to stand up and hold on tight to what I have… like what you’ve ever said to me ‘if this would make you mine…’

I am not a warrior, I don’t do fight… But I swear on my own life, you are way so incredible for me, thus you are far away, all I wanna do is to LOVE you…

This is to show you how much I do love you. Nothing ever made my LOVE stop!!! As long as my heart still beating and time is still ticking – my LOVE to you will get stronger and deeper…

Its not normal if it’s too much argument or fight in a relationship,, but it’s not normal as well if we don’t have any… there are two different person compiled in one, so there must be some clashes happened.

And after all those roller coaster-riding period,, It didn’t change any single thing of my heart and mind – I am still Loving you even more, I am still holding you right in my heart just like how I used to.

"No, I'm no easy Angel.. I am moody like the wind..
I am impatient, complicated.. I am FRAGILE deep within...
but You'Re NO FOOL,,, and I'm NO LITTLE GIRL---
Have we not found,, there is LOVE in the WORLD _ THIS IS LOVE" - K. Rowland

God, I got amazed of my self, seeing how grown up I became right now. It has been 14 months we are together, and I noticed the huge change on my life, on my self, and how my world is so wonderful and I believed it will stop spinning around if I don’t have YOU… thanks for letting me blow to grow…

It s funny how we could gather our imaginations and wishes upon our dreams, then I realized,, ever since I’m with you – “Everyday is a Lucky day”

This is about differences,, this is about working things up TOGETHER

This is LOVE that I'm talking about...

FULL STOP!!!

WACKY WACKY SELF-LUCID~~

Another case in LIFE...

"To grow old is a must..but, to be mature is an option"

I don't think there's any such a bad person in this world... it might be just because the good people won't accept their behavior. it could be that the good person is holding the bad predicate-which actually juz been created by themselves... well,,not all good things are good nor bad things are bad,,, selfless-good-deeds does??? how we actually supposed to digest the meaning of it?!

well..

"YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE YOURSELF TO BE.
don't be like those people who believe in "positive thinking" and tell themselves that they're loved and strong and capable. You don't need to do that, because you know it already. And when you doubt it - which happens, I think, quite often at this stage of evolution--do as I suggested. Instead of trying to prove that you're better than you think, just laugh. Laugh at your worries and insecurities. View your anxieties with humor. It will be difficult at first, but you'll gradually get used to it." - Paulo Coelho

I am so into wot he says...

the function of the right ear is to accept the 'input' from 'people',,,while the left ear's function is to let it all OUT!!!
sumhow selfish is good if its exactly on the right portion...
the main thing to be underlined,,
I still never HEED on WOT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME...

u know?
I'm a Kryptonite my self
hahaha

~it may all seems ambiguous, but, anyway...
HIT IT!!!

---when YOU'RE not around---

have you ever shed a tear unconsciously???

have you ever awake all the sudden in ur sleep in the mid of the nite???

and do you know how it feels if you miss someone so bad and cant even touch the person,, barely even hug or kiss ;(

counting the ticking clocks for every single secconds is not nice...
and I dont think I have that much tears left to cry...

all I can do now is just imagine the day has come...
the day that me and him could embrace ourselves and wont be apart for any such reason and counting the ticking clock together, shelter under the nice hut that we built together and draw a huge colorful rainbow above it...

now I put a big smile on my face just by imagine it... =)

I do

He went away...

I dragged down n cried,,
He took my heart along with him...
I dont mind...I knew he will take good care of it...

If only He knows...
He is the reason I woke up in the morning,,
He is the reason why I smile...
He breaths the air I breathe...
He is the Best Thing dat ever happen in my whole Life...
He's my kryptonite...

I'll be here...I'll be winning him over EVERYTHING...
Go on Bamy,,,go catchin up Our Dreams,,,ouR Future it supposed...

I LOVE YOU...FOR SURE....
and there's NO END TO IT....

I Pee in a Bottle...

People,, do you aware about the circle of life?????

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Time is ticking,,,we dont even know when its gonna stop!!

imagine if ur life juz the same as the principle of the wheels',,when sumtimes you can be "UP" and sumtimes you can be "DOWN"....

believe me,,,if people juz realize that simple thing,,,

the world will be juz safe and sound - I think....

and why most people just having the same mindset, to see that somebody else's grass is greener, or why she looks more gorgeous than me, and how come I cant have the same fancy car as his???? --- maybe this the the main causes why some evil really dare to stab someone form the back,,,

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I’m yarning… If you only knew how tired I am to stand up on one foot for all this time and running at the same time with no arrow. Rapidly I tried to run away with no exemption.

from the world to my personal life wouldnt be much different,,,am a teeny tiny part of this huge ball that consists everything which going to be fucked up by the ones who stand on it!!!!

I guess world is just too big for me,, or I’m just too small…

I never wanna be a narrow minded person, but if I couldn’t have a broad minded in such a game coz everything will drive me NUTS coz I don’t have that much space to load. (I don’t know where it goes….but This is exactly wot I wanna say)

You know wot? I am so…overloaded…

I am just trying to find a way how to deals with people and start to do something on my own behalf, to do wot I want to do, not wot people want me to do…

But, I know its hard tho’… ever since I always trying to rely on images rather than the contain itself.

Making self perfections by holding on prides – NOT GOOD...

King Regards,

Sarah Aspih

Butterflies in my stomaCh...

I move...
get all my muscle worked out
I think...
force my brain cells to work
I ran...
my heart pumpin harder,,
n my blood circulate faster
I love...
pour my heart with shimmered water cooler with a nice smell of summer breeze

I made it
doesnt mean dat I wont regret it
I forgot it
doesnt mean dat I dont want it
I regret it
doesnt mean I am always right
I love it
doesnt mean that I deserve it,,
also doesnt mean that I have to break down when I fallen for love

I conquer the world with my own thought,,,
that I think everything is not always possible as wot people normally believed..

I am a coward...
coz I know I am not always rite...
after I've done sumthing,,,doesnt mean it will turns out real good...
but sumhow I always know that I've been BLESSED with certain goods and conditions which others dont have 'em...
I have got everything I have always wanted...
but sumhow...

all the GOOD THINGS make me worried,,,
I got worried of losing the things dat right on my palms...

I was Sorry...

If only I could turn back time???
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If only I could,,,not juz 'IT' dat am gonna fix...
imagine millions scars I hav by now!!!
sumtimes I really wanted to scream,,
right time - right place
is juz NEVER EVER happen to me...

I've had enough of this parade.
I'm thinking of the words to say.
We open up unfinished parts,
Broken up, it's only love.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Standing here looking out e window
My night's long - Cause I don't have you
How can I be so damn demanding?

But I can't let go///I juz wanna lean on u...
I dont wanna let u down,,
I dont want it to stop!!!

Its all MY FAULT...
I break down n cry - I scratched ur heart - I felt it
I still fallin-and will keep on fallin
coz my love dont stop...
but I dont hav guts,,to come up n stand next 2 u again...
I dropped blood in plain water,,
its all too late...














u're my heart---
is there anybody can LIVE without e heart????